A day of fun on a farm!

 After Chris passed away, it was a very hard time for all of us.  To help cheer the kids up and give them something fun to do, Aunt Emily invited the kids over to her uncle's house for a day of fun. 

He has it all....horses, a big pond for fishing, ducks, and lots of room for the kids to run and play.

The kids had a blast. 

Adriana was very excited to ride his horses and was even allowed to ride out in the open on her own.  This makes for a very nervous mom, but a very excited horse loving little girl!

 Andrew even got on and rode the horse for a bit.  But of course he was led on a lead rope, not sure he could handle it if the horse took off on him!

 Then of course there was lots and lots of fishing!!!!

The kids had a wonderful day and I can't thank Uncle Ralph enough for allowing the Weber kids to come and take over his property!!!

First day of school!

 This year the kids had to start school a week late because daddy passed away on the day that was supposed to be their first day of school. 

This is also the big year for Andrew who started kindergarten!!!!

He wasn't very excited about getting his pictures taken this year!

 The sign they left for Andrew on his first day of school!  I love that they do this for the kids!

 Not sure if the school is excited for these Weber kids to be back ;)

Can't belive my little buddy is already starting kindergarten!  So excited for him and can't wait to see everything he learns this first year!

My heart!!!!

God saw you getting tired

A cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you
And whispered, "Come with Me."

With tearful eyes we watched you
And saw you fade away.
Although we loved you dearly
We could not make you stay.

A golden heart stopped beating
Your tender hands at rest.
God took you home to prove to us
He only takes the best.

There is a pain left that I know will never go away.  I have a whole in my heart that will remind me everyday of the pain left behind!  I can only hope in time the pain will ease for me and our beautiful kids.  Chris was the most amazing guy and everyone he met loved him!  I miss you so much Chris!!!!!  It's just not fair!  I hate this!!!!

Love you!!!!

I love you with all my heart Chris!!!!





Daddy's bear!

 While daddy was very sick in the hospital, I decided to take the kids to make a build a bear for him.  I thought this might make the kids and daddy feel a little better. 

First the kids all picked out a bear together.  It was not difficult for them to agree on a bear once they saw the Albert Pujols bear since daddy is such a HUGE cardinals fan.

Then the kids created their own sound for daddy.  They made a personalized one where each of the kids spoke into it telling daddy they hope he gets better soon.

Next came time to stuff the bear and each one of the kids picked out their own heart and put it into the bear.

 Next was bathtime where the kids all worked really well together bathing the new bear.

 And finally time to get the bear dressed.  Again it was another easy choice for the kids to agree on the outfit as they put it into a cardinals outfit :)

 And finally they delivered the bear to daddy at the hospital.  They were all so excited to give it to daddy and it put a smile on daddy's listening to all the kids excitedly talk about how they made it and listening to their voices recorded in the bear.

This bear later was placed into daddy's casket when he was buried so he can always hear the kids voices!

Fourth of July!

 This year for the Fourth of July we were very sad that daddy was unable to go with us because his pain was beginning to get to be more than he could bare. 

We headed down that morning to watch the annual St. Charles parade.  Unfortunately it was raining this year, but it didn't slow the kids down.  They loved running around playing in the rain.  Thankful it was more of a drizzle and wasn't bad.

 

We met up with the kids cousins.....Gabe, Mike, and Angeline.  The six of these kids together are so much fun!  I'm so happy they all get along so well!

After the parade, we went home to spend the day with daddy.  That night we returned to the riverfront with my sister, Kim, and Dan (who was working) and was able to watch the fireworks.  The kids were very excited and loved watching them.  I heard lots of ooooohhhhs and aaaahhhhs from them.  I really wish Chris would have been able to go with us, but I know he was with us in spirit!!!!

Daddy!!!

 Daddy's pain has become to much for him to bear and is now pretty much bed ridden.  We've been trying to make the most of it and still spending time with daddy.  Andrew and Daddy's favorite activity together is playing video games, so Andrew is now bringing the games to daddy and laying in bed with him while they spend time together.

The kids also made daddy a picture that we could place on the wall next to where daddy is in bed.  It gives daddy something fun to look at and the kids know how special it is for daddy!

Daddy's birthday party!!!

 This year I decided to have a birthday party for Chris.  With his cancer getting so much worse, I thought this would be a good time to celebrate and let everyone come and see Chris.  I thought it might also put a smile on Chris' face.  I think it worked as Chris had a great time and we had a huge turnout with so many people coming to see Chris.  I think he had close to 100 close friends celebrating with him!

Unfortunately I forgot to take very many pictures, but these are the few I did take.  It was a huge success and it was great to see a smile on Chris' face!!!

Daddy's birthday!!!!

 This year was a very important year for daddy's birthday.  He was recently diagnosed to stage 4 melanoma cancer and we were unsure if this might be his last year.  We wanted to make it as special as we could for daddy.  So like we do every year, the kids and I planned a surprise party for daddy.  We made some decorations and a yummy cake then headed out and bought daddy lots of presents.  It worked, daddy was surprised and LOVED all his gifts!  It was so good to see a smile on daddy's face!!!!

Happy 36th birthday to best daddy ever!!!!  We all love you soooo much!!!!!

Worst day of my life!

Today is a day that no one should ever have to go through! I went in to the doctor with Chris expecting bad news, but I had not prepared for what I was told! It felt like I was punched as hard as possible in the chest and actually got the wind knocked out of me.
Chris was my first and only love. We went on our first date when I was 14 and he was 15. He is the only person I have ever loved and it rips my guts out thinking he might be taken from me!
He is 35! He should not have to talk to his wife about where he is going to be buried at! I'm so mad right now I just want to yell and punch something!
How in the world would someone ever be able to look at the three most beautiful people in the world and tell them their daddy might now be around. I wonder if my three year old will ever remember him and what a great daddy he is!
It makes me so mad that people like Michael Devlin and Chris Coleman can rot away in jail being healthy, when someone who is a great husband and daddy have to go through this!
How is it that the world goes on carefree and laughing when mine is falling apart!
Its not fair! I try to sleep and wake up hyperventalating from the pain!
I just wish the pain would stop, that I could sleep again! That my husband and best friend would not have to go through this!
I'm just so MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!